Joann Penki questions love what it is, how it makes a person, and what its worth; she finds out. Joann meets lilly who falls in love with her but when they go to Joannes hometown Joann realizes her feelings for Billie her roommate and best friend. they couldn't help to act on their feelings Joann cheats on Lilly and is forced to make a decision she chooses Billie but is left alone until years later Billie is married but when Joann comes back she has an affair with her. Jackson, billies husband threatens their lives they run, settle down, and try to start a family. Billie becomes Joannes surrogate mother so she could carry Joannes baby. Jackson finds them, Joann closes her eyes and imagines them safe, in Joannes created world. a world of transitory area existence and fantasy. Forbidden love keeps their lives changing yet there souls mate no matter who they are or what they are good or bad