Suicide is a topic that many people are very uncomfortable with. However, when someone you love dies in this manner, it's a topic that is thrust upon you and survival is something that you may not even care about. I offer a look at my personal travel through this scary odyssey. A life is a precious thing and we don't always realize this until it leaves with a resounding crash. When my husband died I read as many books on suicide as I could find. Some were too clinical to offer any comfort and some were just too scary! I decided that a personal account would be invaluable. In today's world suicide will touch most people in one form or another.