(Extract from) Chapter 1 1 Rock bottom `Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled neither let it be afraid.' (John 14:27 Nkjv) It was the morning of Sunday 21 July 1991, a warm summer's day. The wind-battered hilltop was today pleasantly bathed with a sunny glow. I was living in a Buddhist monastery, north of London, England. In bad weather it often felt like a bleak place, dotted with the wooden huts in which we lived. The huts had a temporary look about them, built above the ground, which seemed to encourage nasty gusts of chilled air to blow underneath. The trees and shrubs we had planted in the field were still very young, but were beginning to add a bit more greenery to the surroundings. We hadn't had the meal yet, but I wasn't hungry that day. I had other things on my mind. I was one of the few ordained members of the community left at the temple. Nearly everyone, including the lay people and guests staying with us, had departed early in the morning to attend an ordination ceremony at our other monastery in the south of England. This was one of the highlights of the year, our biggest ceremonial event - the one day when suitable men and women could take the higher ordination. I had relished seeing new people ordain. It was exciting and full of meaning for me. Ordinarily I would not have missed it. But this year I didn't want to be there. I had asked for permission not to go. I had lived in a Buddhist temple for eight years, most of that time in England as a nun (although I spent the first six months in a forest temple in Thailand before ordaining). I had taken two ordinations, initially as a novice and then as a Buddhist nun (known as a ten-precept nun). I was searching deeply for truth, and had strongly believed that Buddhism could take me there. I had given up everything that was necessary to follow the Buddhist way. Some people may consider it an extreme way to live. The life of a Buddhist nun was strict and disciplined. It involved many ascetic practices which had the aim of giving up the pleasures of the world in search for truth. They were designed to simplify life and help us detach from earthly things. Living like this was often very tiring, but it had become normal for me and very much part of me. We slept little, ate only one meal a day and experienced much sensory deprivation. We didn't listen to the radio or television, and so at some level were cut off from the world. I was known for my strong faith in Buddhism and hadn't ever really doubted the purpose of living like this. Until now. Something had changed dramatically. I had begun seriously to doubt Buddhism. This had never happened before and I was inwardly shaken and somewhat bewildered as a result, none of which I liked. I wanted and needed to be sure. I didn't know what was happening to me or where the strong persistent faith that I once had was disappearing to: it felt like sand slipping out of my fingers. Today I was at a peak of confusion and inner turmoil. I don't know where I was when I made the decision to go out of the temple. Suddenly I found myself, with my shaven head and dark brown robe, running down to the traditional Anglican church in the nearby village. It was totally spontaneous. I didn't know who or what I would find there. I just found myself tearing out of the monastery and rushing down the hill. I was aware as I went that I had asked no-one's permission to leave. This was more urgent than etiquette! I just fled. My head was in a spin. I thought, `I've got to talk to somebody, I've got to understand what's happening to me.' I felt deep down that someone in the church would have the answer, but I had no idea who or why. ...

Buddhism's influence is growing in the West, as seen in the widespread use of "Buddhist mindfulness apps" in people's attempts to unwind, or the casual use of words like "nirvana" and "karma" that have crept into the English language. Whether we meet it in the East or West, what is Buddhism? What is at the heart of its teachings? How does Buddhism differ from Christianity, and are they compatible? Through a collection of true short stories and testimonies, Buddhism in the Light of Christ--a sequel and companion to Esther Baker's first book, I Once was a Buddhist Nun--takes an insightful look at some core Buddhist beliefs and practices, and then reflects on them from a Christian viewpoint and biblical understanding. Esther tackles important questions such as: "How does the Buddhist goal nirvana and God differ?" and "Is Buddhism a form of idolatry?" Her responses reveal a penetrating understanding that helps to unravel and demystify the true nature of Buddhism. Buddhism in the Light of Christ also includes helpful suggestions on how to share Jesus with Buddhist friends, as well as important considerations regarding discipleship once a Buddhist has come to know Christ. "It is good that someone has written on this subject, and Esther Baker is the one to do it. Drawing from her experience of being a Buddhist nun, and then encountering the truth she had been seeking all along, Esther writes clearly about that truth and how it is sorely lacking in Buddhism." --Leanne Payne, Pastoral Care Ministries, Wheaton, IL "Esther's writing is a unique mix of storytelling and Biblical wisdom. Her stories reflect a rich understanding and insights drawn from her own personal experience as a Buddhist nun and also from years of living and teaching in contexts where a Buddhist worldview prevails. Her wisdom comes from deeply reflecting on how the Bible speaks about the concerns that Buddhism seeks to address. This book is essential for anyone who wants to understand Buddhism from a biblical worldview." --Ruth Wall, All Nations Christian College, Hertfordshire, UK "At a time when we hear of western 'dual-belongers' who argue with passion that we can actually be Buddhists while at the same time also claiming to be true Christians, in this sequel to her previous book, Esther Baker reflects from her own perhaps unrivaled experience on the deep and irreconcilable differences between what she actually found in living Buddhism and the joy and true freedom of authentically knowing Christ. This book is absorbingly readable and highly recommended." --Paul Williams, Centre for Buddhist Studies, University of Bristol, Bristol, UK Esther Baker has been a Christian for over twenty-two years and has served as a missionary in Thailand since 2000. She has a heart to see Buddhists come to know Jesus and mature in their faith. Baker is the author of I Once Was a Buddhist Nun (2009).

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