Joi McIntosh is a woman torn. She is married to the perfect husband. She is the mother of the perfect daughter. She has her own thriving business and seems to be living the perfect life. But she has secrets... Secrets that haunt her dreams. Along comes Latoya Bradshaw. She's beautiful, successful, and edgy. She awakens feelings in Joi that have lain dormant for years. She reminds Joi of her past. Joi must decide on whether she wants to continue living the life of the woman that she has become or risk it all to become the woman that she once thought that she was meant to be.

When Young Toki's over the top lifestyle of living in the HOV lane takes a turn for the worst and her world starts to spiral out of control. She is forced to make some uneasy decisions; first her crews stash house is robbed; then the man she loves turns out to be her worst enemy. When the kisses and the extravagant gifts turn to bloody lips and black eye's; when the housie wife life she chose turns out to be something she can't handle and the game becomes unbearable and the only way out of her relationship is in a coffin. How long will she be able to hide her black eyes from her loved ones and will her faults be the cause of her families 'demise? Welcome to Toki's world the female that seen it all, been through it all, and thinks she knows it all; this is my life my love my loss my faults...