My name is Ruth Gordon. I was born in Switzerland in 1950 and left at the age of 16 to pursue my ballet career. This journey brought me to England in 1969 where I met Simon Gordon, a fine ballet pianist and conductor, in 1978. Two weeks later we were married. Unbeknownst to me Simon had suffered from Schizophrenia since the age of 11. In 1980 I gave birth to our son Matthew. Simon's grandmother (a huge influence on his life) died in 1981, incepting an episode of Simon's latent Schizophrenia which culminated in him kidnapping Matthew, beating me and finally committing suicide. During this period, both Simon and I wrote diaries which are the central components of this book. These diaries display the differences in how we experienced this time of difficulty and hopefully convey the raw emotions of this time.

Three classic films from acclaimed director, Roman Polanski. In 'Rosemary's Baby' (1968), Mia Farrow stars as Rosemary, a young wife whose husband (John Cassavetes), an actor, falls in with a group of Satanists. When Rosemary becomes pregnant, she begins to suspect that she may be carrying the child of the Devil. In 'The Tenant' (1976), when Trelkovsky (Polanski) rents a decrepit, barren flat he discovers that the flat's previous occupant, a young girl, had leaped to her death from its window. Intrigued, he begins to obsess about the girl and convinces himself that the other tenants of the building are trying to drive him to self-murder as well. But has Trelkovsky really only inherited the girl's suicidal urges? Finally, in 'Chinatown' (1974), private eye Jake Gittes (Jack Nicholson) is hired to follow water commissioner Hollis Mulwray (Darrell Zwerling), only to see him turn up dead at the bottom of a reservoir. Realising he has been used, Gittes confronts Mulwray's widow Evelyn (Faye Dunway), a woman who seems to have plenty of secrets of her own, not least her ambiguous relationship with her father Noah Cross (John Huston).

A collection of Spencer Tracy and Katharine Hepburn films. 'Woman of the Year' (1942) was the film which united the couple both off screen and on. A high powered political columnist (Hepburn) falls for a lowly sportswriter (Tracy) working on the same paper, even though they are poles aparts socially and intellectually. However, their relationship takes a turn for the worse after they marry, with her unable to adapt to the role of housewife, and him driven to drink by her intransigence. Hepburn won an Oscar for her role. In 'Keeper of the Flame' (1942) a widely-revered politician dies when his car runs off a bridge. Seasoned hack Steve O'Malley (Tracy) begins researching a biography on the man, and, through the revelations of his widow Christine (Hepburn), uncovers a number of dark secrets about him. In 'Adam's Rib' (1949) Tracy and Hepburn team up as a married couple finding themselves on opposite sides of a court case. Whilst in 'Pat and Mike' (1952) Pat Pemberton (Hepburn) is a PE teacher at a southern Californian college, who is persuaded by shady sports promoter Mike Conovan (Tracy) to become a professional athlete. As she flourishes in a number of disciplines, the couple begin to fall in love - although there are plenty of hurdles in the way of their eventual happiness.