In the second of Fenella's three books, happiness is short lived in marriage - eleven days to be exact, followed by a seven year nightmare before finally bailing ship. The first book: "Rejoice... I Will Fear No Evil (Psalm 23)" begins with physical abuse, but the marriage as told through the character of Jessica, was a relationship of emotional abuse, that led to planning suicide as the only escape. Having counselled and helped others, Jesse couldn't help herself Of course, Jesse lives to tell the story, but has many sadness's and three major bereavements to deal with, not to mention the unleashing of a great anger and bitterness in her heart and the spoils they bring. Whilst succeeding in a career working with young people having been forced out of mission, her personal life becomes a non-stop quest for love, internet dating, and a total failure, hidden behind the mask of a clown. A finger of fate flicks the switch bringing sickness - ME, and the ensuing realities of limitations, causing Jesse to go in pursuit of yet another lifelong dream to improve her quality of life... requiring her to sell up, saying farewell to friends, seeking pastures new and fresh opportunities. Priding herself on being a survivor, Jesse brushes the hurts under the carpet and moves on 'til such a time when the hurts and disappointments become a mountain impossible to avoid and a volcano bursts beyond the mask, spewing the poisons within... and a realisation that something has to change. Returning to her waiting 'Perfect Valentine', He empowers and encourages Jesse to break free from the chains of self-pity, low self-worth, and the constant cloud of failure, to a place of victory - with the dreaded mountain as rubble at her feet "When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me." I am touched by the almost childlike way Fenella Stevensen views life in her early years of "Rejoice... I Will Fear No Evil (Psalm 23)" struck by the sincerity in each word, and the emotion which at times jump out of the pages. Fenella has unearthed an incredible talent in that her life story, but most of all in spreading the word that no matter where you come from, what dark journeys life makes you take, hope prevails. Patrick Jason - Malta Now

Life looks positive as a young woman still in my late teens, when I fall madly in love with my Prince Charming, a wonderful man of good looks, money and power... until he attempts to kill me with the carving knife. Meeting my Perfect Valentine, becomes a major turning point in my life, directing me through important choices to be made and amazing experiences where I travel and begin to fulfil my childhood dreams. It is a story of growth, pushing boundaries, dealing with pain, re-learning basic truths, and actually beginning to love myself. Having always been told I was ugly - well that I have eyes like a cod fish - would you like to kiss a cod? Selling everything I own, and travelling as a missionary, each journey reveals inner truths, baring strengths and weaknesses, and taking me closer to my awaiting husband, the desire of my beating heart. But life continues to take turns causing my father at first to disown me, and push boundaries in my parents own minds of acceptance. There are times of incredible worthlessness and fountains of fruitfulness and joy. Lessons to be learned, and mountains to be climbed experiencing the mountain tops of life... but life is rarely lived on a mountain top, and the downhill climb can be treacherous leading you back into the valley of the shadows of death. Those days being single were some of the most fulfilling times of my life, a privilege to be the 'hand of love' to those in need. Climaxing to the words I had longed to say all my life, and be asked the question that required my answer of 'I do', leads me to the imaginary place of all fairytales... to live Happily Ever After or not

In the second of Fenella's three books, happiness is short lived in marriage - eleven days to be exact, followed by a seven year nightmare before finally bailing ship. The first book: "Rejoice... I Will Fear No Evil (Psalm 23)" begins with physical abuse, but the marriage as told through the character of Jessica, was a relationship of emotional abuse, that led to planning suicide as the only escape. Having counselled and helped others, Jesse couldn't help herself Of course, Jesse lives to tell the story, but has many sadness's and three major bereavements to deal with, not to mention the unleashing of a great anger and bitterness in her heart and the spoils they bring. Whilst succeeding in a career working with young people having been forced out of mission, her personal life becomes a non-stop quest for love, internet dating, and a total failure, hidden behind the mask of a clown. A finger of fate flicks the switch bringing sickness - ME, and the ensuing realities of limitations, causing Jesse to go in pursuit of yet another lifelong dream to improve her quality of life... requiring her to sell up, saying farewell to friends, seeking pastures new and fresh opportunities. Priding herself on being a survivor, Jesse brushes the hurts under the carpet and moves on 'til such a time when the hurts and disappointments become a mountain impossible to avoid and a volcano bursts beyond the mask, spewing the poisons within... and a realisation that something has to change. Returning to her waiting 'Perfect Valentine', He empowers and encourages Jesse to break free from the chains of self-pity, low self-worth, and the constant cloud of failure, to a place of victory - with the dreaded mountain as rubble at her feet "When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me." I am touched by the almost childlike way Fenella Stevensen views life in her early years of "Rejoice... I Will Fear No Evil (Psalm 23)" struck by the sincerity in each word, and the emotion which at times jump out of the pages. Fenella has unearthed an incredible talent in that her life story, but most of all in spreading the word that no matter where you come from, what dark journeys life makes you take, hope prevails. Patrick Jason - Malta Now

Life looks positive as a young woman still in my late teens, when I fall madly in love with my Prince Charming, a wonderful man of good looks, money and power... until he attempts to kill me with the carving knife. Meeting my Perfect Valentine, becomes a major turning point in my life, directing me through important choices to be made and amazing experiences where I travel and begin to fulfil my childhood dreams. It is a story of growth, pushing boundaries, dealing with pain, re-learning basic truths, and actually beginning to love myself. Having always been told I was ugly - well that I have eyes like a cod fish - would you like to kiss a cod? Selling everything I own, and travelling as a missionary, each journey reveals inner truths, baring strengths and weaknesses, and taking me closer to my awaiting husband, the desire of my beating heart. But life continues to take turns causing my father at first to disown me, and push boundaries in my parents own minds of acceptance. There are times of incredible worthlessness and fountains of fruitfulness and joy. Lessons to be learned, and mountains to be climbed experiencing the mountain tops of life... but life is rarely lived on a mountain top, and the downhill climb can be treacherous leading you back into the valley of the shadows of death. Those days being single were some of the most fulfilling times of my life, a privilege to be the 'hand of love' to those in need. Climaxing to the words I had longed to say all my life, and be asked the question that required my answer of 'I do', leads me to the imaginary place of all fairytales... to live Happily Ever After or not