A personal lyrical essay collection by a winner of the Lambda Literary Award for Lesbian Memoir.   “I am a butterfly at half-mast. Muscles coiled like springs. I have not unwound yet,� writes Julie Marie Wade in Otherwise. In this series of intimate, braided essays written throughout her 30s, Wade traces her own unwinding and becoming through probing lyricism. As a daughter, lover, lesbian, and writer, she invites readers on a journey of self-discovery framed by memory, literature, and popular culture. Touching and tender, empathic and insightful, Otherwise revels in its author's self-acceptance at the threshold of mid-life.