This book is a testimony and self disclosure of my life growing up in a poor dysfunctional alcoholic household. By 1997 I was convinced that I was a victim of the disease of addiction and came to recognize where my addiction had taken me. I was then facing 3-6 years of incarceration because of my addiction and possession of a controlled substance. Treatment has worked for me because I was afforded the opportunity to look at self and how low my self esteem was. In addition my addiction left me with the major feelings of fear: Fear of failure, fair or success and ultimately fear of failure to succeed. But I confronted fear it the face and showed tear that I will be the dynamic person God has destined me to be. It is the hoped that those struggling with the disease of addiction may learn and find something in this chronicle of events to help them taste the flavor of recovery. Believe me the battle is ongoing and Spirituality plays an integral part in the recovery from this fatal disease. I thank my God of my understanding for his wonderful work in my life.