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Let Me Not Be Mad is an immersive, virtuosic and provocative investigation of madness, love and self-destruction that defies categorisation. 'Exhilarating ... dazzling ... a miraculous feat' Guardian 'I have rarely read a more haunting and enthralling account of a descent into madness' Stephen Fry 'Stunning: clever, troubling, restless, honest, dishonest' Olivia Laing A consulting room with two people in it. One of them is talking, the other is listening. Both of them need help. Throughout his life, A K Benjamin has found himself drawn to extreme behaviour - as a screenwriter, a contemplative monk, a counsellor for addicts, a support-worker for gang-members and ultimately as a clinical neuropsychologist. His book begins as a series of superbly realised clinical encounters with anonymised patients, some recently traumatised, some on the brink of mental collapse, others already in freefall. But with each encounter, it becomes increasingly and disturbingly apparent that what we are reading is not really about the patients at all: it is about the author's own fevered descent into mental illness and mania as he confronts his traumatic past. Layered with twists and revelations, Let Me Not Be Mad challenges the boundary between fact and fiction to provide a thrilling drama of self-diagnosis: a hall of mirrors blazing with energy, intensity, humour and emotion. And though shockingly personal, it also reveals something deep and dark in western culture that is driving millions of us to distraction and collapse.
Multiple award-winning author Elsa Joubert's memoir about life after the death of her beloved husband. She must come to terms with the loss of independence, friends who die and the changes in her memory and bodily powers. Vivid memories of her eventful life as a celebrated writer are skilfully woven into her story. Filled with wisdom, compassion and humour, this book will leave no reader untouched.
Based on a true story, The Forgotten Child is a heart-breaking memoir of an abandoned newborn baby left to die, his tempestuous upbringing, and how he came through the other side. It's a freezing winter's night in 1954. A baby boy, a few hours old, is left by his mother, wrapped in nothing but two sheets of newspaper and hidden amongst the undergrowth by a canal bank. An hour later, a late-shift postman is walking wearily home when he hears a faint cry. He finds the newspaper parcel and discovers the newborn, white-cold and whimpering, inside. After being rushed to hospital and against all odds, the baby survives. He's baptised by the hospital chaplain as Richard. Everything feels as though it's looking up; Richard is put into local authority care and regains his health. However, after nearly five blissful years in a rural care home filled with loving friends, it soon unfolds that his turbulent start in life is only the beginning... Based on a devastating true story, this inspirational memoir follows Richard's traumatic birth, abusive childhood, and search for the truth.
Mary Giuliani's charming memoir, Tiny Hot Dogs,weaves together a collection of hilariously relatable essays detailing her winding path through makeshift kitchens and catering gigs to wind up at the center of the party. With an easy, natural storytelling sensibility, Mary recounts her path to becoming one of New York City's most high-profile food entrepreneurs, dubbed "Caterer to the Stars" by the press, as she counts gleaming trays of pigs in a blanket as a crucial ingredient in her recipe for success, in building both a business and a family. Beginning with a totally normal childhood spent with her loving and deeply overprotective Italian family in an all-Jewish enclave on Long Island, we see a self-proclaimed "outsider" trying to fit in. Mary shares the twists and turns that land her in an unexpected catering job, for which she is perfectly suited (even though she has dreams of the stage). Her side gig turns out to be unexpectedly fulfilling, and changes her life. In growing into her catering career, Mary walks through hilarious celebrity encounters, devastating personal losses, and a hard-scrabble climb to success, through which she maintains a tight hold on her optimism and entirely relatable nature. Though she easily moves in and out of star-studded circles and has earned the trust and loyalty of New York's high-rolling class, she remains the same self-deprecating Catholic girl from New Jersey who wants nothing more than to have a bat mitzvah like all her friends. The reader cannot help rooting for "the girl with the tiny hot dogs," excited to see where each shiny, silvery tray of hors d'oeuvres takes her next. As joyful observers, we ultimately revel in her realization that serving the gang instead of joining them may just be one of life's greatest recipes.
Dirk Mudge publiseer op 87-jarige ouderdom sy langverwagte outobiografie. Hierdie besonderse man was vir 33 jaar voltyds betrokke by die politiek van Suidwes-Afrika en later Namibie. Hy betree die politiek in 1960 toe hy lid word van die wetgewende vergadering onder die Nasionale Party van Suidwes-Afrika. Mudge beskryf hoe hy aanvanklik die beginsels van die Nasionale Party onderskryf het, maar mettertyd tot ander insigte gekom het. Dit het onvermydelik tot sy uittrede uit die Nasionale Party gelei en tot die stigting van sy eie party: die Republikeinse Party. Hy het 'n persoonlike aandeel gehad in die skryf van die nuwe Grondwet vir die Republiek van Namibie en probeer in hierdie boek antwoorde verskaf op vrae soos waarom dit Namibie so lank geneem het om onafhanklikheid te bereik en wat die rol van Suid-Afrika en die internsionale gemeenskap daarin gespeel het.
The authors in "Don't Quit Your Day Job" have tried their hands at some of the same jobs as their readers. They have worked on the railroad, busted rocks with a sledgehammer, fought fires, wiped tables, soldiered and carpentered and spied, delivered pizzas, lacquered boat paddles, counted heads for the church, sold underwear, delivered mail, and driven rubbish trucks. And like William Faulkner before them, they have quit those day jobs. These authors tell good tales - this is the book for those who wonder what work preceded the literary efforts of their favourite authors. This collection allows writers to build a bridge between themselves and their readers, connecting with those who love to read and those who dream about writing while on the job during the day.
For a time, Nelson Algren was America's most famous author, lauded by the likes of Richard Wright and Ernest Hemingway. Millions bought his books. Algren's third novel, The Man with the Golden Arm, won the first National Book Award, and Frank Sinatra starred in the movie. But despite Algren's talent, he abandoned fiction and fell into obscurity. The cause of his decline was never clear. Some said he drank his talent away; others cited writer's block. The truth, hidden in the pages of his books, is far more complicated and tragic. Now, almost forty years after Algren's death, Colin Asher finally captures the full, novelistic story of his life in a magisterial biography set against mid-twentieth-century American politics and culture. Drawing from interviews, archival correspondence, and the most complete version of Algren's 886-page FBI file ever released, Colin Asher portrays Algren as a dramatic iconoclast. A member of the Communist Party in the 1930s, Algren used his writing to humanize Chicago's underclass, while excoriating the conservative radicalism of the McCarthy era. Asher traces Algren's development as a thinker, his close friendship and falling out with Richard Wright, and his famous affair with Simone de Beauvoir. Most intriguingly, Asher uncovers the true cause of Algren's artistic exile: a reckless creative decision that led to increased FBI scrutiny and may have caused a mental breakdown. In his second act, Algren was a vexing figure who hid behind a cynical facade. He called himself a "journalist" and a "loser," though many still considered him one of the greatest living American authors. An inspiration to writers such as Hunter S. Thompson, Martha Gellhorn, Jimmy Breslin, Betty Friedan, Cormac McCarthy, Don DeLillo, Russell Banks, and Thomas Pynchon, Algren nevertheless struggled to achieve recognition, and died just as his career was on the verge of experiencing a renaissance. Never a Lovely So Real offers an exquisitely detailed, engrossing portrait of a master who, as esteemed literary critic Maxwell Geismar wrote, was capable of suggesting "the whole contour of a human life in a few terse pages."
Now a major Channel 4 series Rose Cartwright has OCD, but not as you know it. Pure is the true story of her ten-year struggle with `Pure O', a little-known form of the condition, which causes her to experience intrusive sexual thoughts of shocking intensity. It is a brave and frequently hilarious account of a woman who refused to give up, despite being undermined at every turn by her obsessions and enduring years of misdiagnosis and failed therapies. Eventually, the love of family and friends, and Rose's own courage and sense of humour prevailed, inspiring this deeply felt and beautifully written memoir. At its core is a lesson for all of us: when it comes to being happy with who we are, there are no neat conclusions.
In this memoir-in-essays full of spot-on observations about home, work, and creative life, Philpott takes on the conflicting pressures of modern womanhood with wit and heart. She offers up her own stories to show that identity crises don't happen just once or only at midlife; reassures us that small, recurring personal re-inventions are both normal and necessary; and advises that if you're going to faint, you should get low to the ground first. Most of all, Philpott shows that when you stop feeling satisfied with your life, you don't have to burn it all down and set off on a transcontinental hike (unless you want to, of course). You can call upon your many selves to figure out who you are, who you're not, and where you belong. Who among us isn't trying to do that?
Not all abuse leaves a mark. For more than two years, BBC Radio 4's The Archers ran a disturbing storyline centred on Helen Titchener's abuse at the hands of her husband Rob. Not the kind of abuse that leaves a bruise, but the sort of coercive control that breaks your spirit and makes it almost impossible to walk away. As she listened to the unfolding story, Helen Walmsley-Johnson was forced to confront her own agonizing past. Helen's first husband controlled her life, from the people she saw to what was in her bank account. He alienated her from friends and family and even from their three daughters. Eventually, he threw her out and she painfully began to rebuild her life. Then, divorced and in her early forties, she met Franc. Kind, charming, considerate Franc. For ten years she would be in his thrall, even when he too was telling her what to wear, what to eat, even what to think. Look What You Made Me Do is her candid and utterly gripping memoir of how she was trapped by a smiling abuser, not once but twice. It is a vital guide to recognizing, understanding and surviving this sinister form of abuse and its often terrible legacy. It is also an inspirational account of how one woman found the courage to walk away. 'Powerful' Jane Garvey, Woman's Hour 'Compelling' Suzanne Moore
Sunday Times top 10 bestseller 'Authentic, tough, horrifying in some places and hilarious in others . . . the author's honesty and decency shine through' Jonathan Aitken Neil `Sam' Samworth spent eleven years working as a prison officer in HMP Manchester, aka Strangeways. A tough Yorkshireman with a soft heart, Sam had to deal with it all - gangsters and gangbangers, terrorists and psychopaths, addicts and the mentally ill. Men who should not be locked up and men who should never be let out. Strangeways by Neil Samworth is a shocking and at times darkly funny account of life in a high security prison. Sam tackles cell fires and self-harmers, and goes head to head with some of the most dangerous men in the country. He describes being attacked by prisoners, and reveals the problems caused by radicalization and the drugs flooding our prisons. As staffing cuts saw Britain's prison system descend into crisis, the stress of the job - the suicides, the inhumanity of the system, and one assault too many - left Sam suffering from PTSD. This raw, searingly honest memoir is a testament to the men and women of the prison service and the incredibly difficult job we ask them to do.
Die digter, advokaat, joernalis, avonturier, dwelmverslaafde en natuurkenner Eugene Marais bly 'n boeiende figuur. Die groot verlange bied nie alleen 'n fassineerdende blik op een van die veelsydigste en merkwaardigeste Afrikaners wat ooit geleef het nie, maar gee terselfdertyd ’n panorama van ’n groot gedeelte van die geskiedenis. In hierdie uitgawe word die belangrikste omissie in die eerste drie uitgawes van die teks, naamlik Marais se rol in die ontdekking van die broodboom wat na hom genoem is, reggestel. Die teks bevat ook nuwe bevindinge uit bronne wat vroeer oor die hoof gesien is.
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Koshuis, saamgestel deur Erns Grundling van Elders-faam, bevat heerlike lekkerlees-vertellings, komies, verspot én roerend, oor die koshuislewe – op skool én universiteit, selfs oorsee – deur ’n verskeidenheid bydraers, insluitend reisskrywer Dana Snyman, geliefde Weg!-joernalis en -aanbieder Toast Coetzer, akteur en komediant Schalk Bezuidenhout, Huisgenoot-redakteur Yvonne Beyers, oudredakteur van Die Burger Bun Booyens, bekroonde romansiers Harry Kalmer en Kerneels Breytenbach, skrywers en joernaliste soos Celesté Fritze, Theunis Strydom, Leroux Schoeman, Marnus Hattingh en Pieter van Zyl, en vele meer.
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It’s 1994. South Africa is on the brink of freedom. On the verge of a big break in modelling, Miss SA finalist, 21-year-old Vanessa Goosen is caught up in every traveller’s nightmare. Duped into carrying books with 1.7 kilograms of heroin hidden in them, Goosen is arrested and tried on drug trafficking charges. Deaf to her pleas of innocence, the Thai courts sentence Goosen to death. On appeal her sentence is commuted to life, to be served in Bangkok’s notorious Lard Yao prison. Pregnant, terrified and desperately alone, Goosen begins a harrowing 16-year journey behind bars. Forced to part with her beloved daughter three years later, Goosen’s story traces the joy and hurt of motherhood behind bars, the depression that comes with long-term incarceration and separation, and her return to a hugely changed South Africa in 2010.
Nelson Mandela was called a terrorist, forced into hiding, captured, threatened with the death penalty and eventually thrown into jail for twenty-seven years, but nothing could stop him from fighting to liberate his country from the evil of apartheid. A hero in the struggle against a terrible regime, he never gave up. Even when he was a prisoner, he worked secretly with his comrades to undermine the oppressive apartheid government. This is the exciting true story of a young herd boy who was to grow up to become a lawyer, a freedom fighter, South Africa’s first democratically elected president and the beloved grandfather of a nation. It is told here in words and pictures for the young and the young at heart: a story to read with enjoyment and remember with pride.
'A subtle, moving celebration of place and connectedness . . . The Grassling brings the sounds, smells and sights of the countryside alive like few other books. Burnett stretches the limits of prose, infusing it with poetic intensity to create a powerful, original voice' PD Smith, Guardian What fills my lungs is wider than breath could be. It is a place and a language torn, matted and melded; flowered and chiming with bones. That breath is that place and until I get there I will not really be breathing. Spurred on by her father's declining health and inspired by the history he once wrote of his small Devon village, Elizabeth-Jane Burnett delves through layers of memory, language and natural history to tell a powerful story of how the land shapes us and speaks to us. The Grassling is a book about roots: what it means to belong when the soil beneath our feet is constantly shifting, when the people and places that nurtured us are slipping away.
Being a new parent is nerve-jangling enough as it is, but what happens if your baby is not what you were expecting? How do you deal with the conflicting feelings, a heart assailed by overwhelming love and overwhelming fear, guilt and anxiety as your expectations are rerouted? This happened to Caroline White. So she pulled together her contrary emotions - the good, the bad and the ugly - and spun them into a poignant and uplifting fable, an inspiration for all new parents who find themselves stumbling along an unfamiliar and unanticipated path. Written with great honesty and love, The Label is anchored by a simple yet powerful central image, a metaphor for all that is limiting and prescriptive, and explores what happens when you let the label go and watch as your child blossoms into their best life untroubled by negative expectations.
Today, OPI is known as a global beauty icon, famous for its trend-setting colors, unforgettable shade names, and celebrity collaborations with the biggest stars from film, television, music, and sports. But behind all the glamour is the little-known tale of OPI's unlikely origins-an intimate and inspiring story of a timid schoolgirl who arrives in this country with little money and no English and becomes the business leader and industry game-changer known worldwide as "Suzi, the First Lady of Nails." In I'm Not Really a Waitress--titled after OPI's top-selling nail color--Suzi reveals the events that led her family to flee Communist Hungary and eventually come to New York City in pursuit of the American dream. She shares how those early experiences gave rise to OPI's revolutionary vision of freedom and empowerment, and how Suzi transformed an industry by celebrating the power of color-and of women themselves.
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